Oh hey, 2019. Long time, no see.
Hope you’re doing well.
I’m exhausted, but in the best way possible.
There are three and a half months left in 2019. It’s honestly flown by. Time flies when you’re having fun, right?
Well, 2019 has been a mix.
It started off rough. The first three months were an emotional and trying time for me. I’m glad I made it to April, and that’s all I’m going to say about that.
In April, I started the best job I’ve ever had. It’s only a seasonal position, but I have loved every second of it.
That isn’t to say I haven’t had rough days. I definitely have.
But overwhelmingly, this job has pushed me to grow as a person. I show up to work everyday excited and ready to get things done, and I find myself wanting to stay longer and do more.
I love it.
But, I haven’t had much time for anything else. Somehow, my schedule has been booked beyond capacity. Yes, I have two jobs, and I work ~50 hours a week between both of them.
But what about the other hours? Well, I’ve struggled for years with saying no to things, and although I’ve been doing better at saying no, I’ve still got a long way to go.
All of that time being filled hasn’t left me with a whole lot of time to focus on personal growth.
I have three and a half months left in my seasonal job (hopefully they’ll let me come back next year, but that’s never a guarantee).
Besides dedicating the next few months to finishing this job on a positive note, I’m going to be spending the next three and a half months working on myself.
That’s not a whole lot of time, but it’s enough to kickstart some positive change. So, with three and a half months left, I’ll try to accomplish three and a half goals.
Here’s what I’ve come up with:
- Read at least three books.
- Start my shopping ban.
- Complete three 30-day challenges.
And the half goal?
Reduce my commitments by half.
That means saying no. Last year, I enthusiastically dubbed 2019 the year of no, and I’ve been doing my best to stick to that. I’ve done well so far, but I’ve started to slide back into my old ways of saying yes without thinking.
I’m really going to be sticking to it for the next few months.
If you’re someone I say no to in the future, just know that it isn’t personal. I just have to for now.
Maybe someday, I’ll say yes again, but for now, I have to say no. I’m sorry.
With all of the saying no I’ll be doing in the next few months, it’s important to note what I’ll be saying yes to.
I’ll be saying yes to:
- Reading more (thus accomplishing one of my goals)
- Writing more
- Both for myself, my schooling (one more project left), and my ~top secret~ personal projects.
- Organizing more
- I’m out of the home so much, a lot of my things tend to pile up, and most of it can be organized easily. I’ve decluttered so manyof my possessions, I really don’t have much left, but you wouldn’t be able to tell by how messy I let my apartment get sometimes.
- Resting more
- Physical exhaustion is real.
- Hiking and birding more
- I’m training for something really exciting, and I need to commit A LOT of my free time to training.
- I’ve been saying yes to everyone but myself. It’s time to change that.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you.
Hopefully I’ll be back soon to check in on my progress.